It was the best of times; it was the worst of times

No, this isn’t going to be political commentary – although it certainly could be.

This is about success. To quote myself, “I really hate success.”

What? Have I finally lost it? Perhaps.

It seems that my most recent book, Fear of Landing, has – with the invaluable help of Mark Violi, the person who produced the book, designed the cover and has been doing publicity – attracted some interest among those Mark calls “the influencers.” One person, who has a radio show called The Last First Date, has asked to interview me about my book.

Good news, right? Sure. And I’ve agreed to a Feb. 21st live radio interview. And now I would very much like to abscond, flee, hide, disapparate – in other words, I wish I could completely avoid this upcoming public dialogue.

I’ve always been a strange combination of outgoing and shy. And, although I have done so many times in my life, there’s a whole lot of nervousness that pervades my being when I have to use my outside voice.

I have a dear friend who is a highly trained public speaker, who has offered to coach me. I will take him up on his offer. Perhaps, under his tutelage, there will be no stuttering or profuse sweating. Perhaps I won’t vibrate like a tuning fork for all to see (this actually happened during the one piano recital I participated in – as a so-called adult).

My shy self has a rather distinct voice; I hear it offering a way out: “Just don’t do it. Cancel. You don’t have to. RUN! RUN!”

So far, I’ve resisted the urge to follow the voice’s advice. But – no promises. If you tune into (I’ll have more clarity about it as we get closer to the date), you can hear the interview. Assuming I don’t chicken out.

Wish me luck!


 Look for my new non-fiction book, FEAR OF LANDING, The stories we tell about commitment and their meanings. It’s available on

Also available on is my science fiction novel, RAYMÒN AND SUNSHINE, It’s about the relationship between an autistic man and a female android three hundred years in the future, when what was once seen as a disability is merely a difference.

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